Hello, again. Back to my monotonous life and my ever-present wallowing in self pity because I can't grow a pair and fix my own life. I'm completely and utterly pathetic, but of course you already know that... Everyone knows that. The people here are just too stupid to admit it. To admit the fact that they know I'm in pain but secretly hope I don't notice that they've noticed my lack of excitement that I use to have ownership of, the absence of care that should be given to my education, or even the ignorance of my friendships that are dissipating from my daily routine. STOP. Please... Help me.