I used to cut myself, too, and it seemed like a phenomenal way of controlling and externalizing the pain I was feeling. I know now that it isn't healthy, and that the "poetry" behind making initials in my skin of the people I've loved and lost was flawed. The best way I ever found to deal with it when I did have the urge was to take a Sharpie and draw on your body. I know it doesn't give that same physical response, but it can help vent your emotions in a healthy and physical way. I'm a very artistic person and some of the designs I've made on my hands and arms are still in my top ten favorites. It's all about finding a way to vent that urge in a healthy way, and cutting is NOT that way. I know that it's a good release, but you can seriously mess up your body from that, and I'm not just talking about scars. The one I remember most is that your menstrual cycle can be messed up for your entire life, not just during this time of depression. There are other serious issues that relate to this, so please take the time to look it up. I want you to try absolutely EVERYTHING before you try cutting yourself again, because you do not need the permanent repercussions that come from a temporary fix.
